time:: 7:17 PM
song:: WARREN G - "i want it all"
mood:: blah

hahaha... holy shit has it been a while! huh guys? well anyway, that's besides the point. i usually sit here on my computer looking through pages on myspace and xangas and having conversations with multiple people and i think, "damn, it was fun writing in my blog." yeah, i always say that im going to write here but... do i? i guess not, sorry reader, lol. i know that you've been waiting, my bad. i went through alot of hair styles also, but i think imma grow it and then dragon ball it out. that should be done by december? lol... i hope!
chk my previous hair styles people, im PIMP! from bald - fade - growing - spiked all around


song:: AKON - "locked up"
anyway, summer is over... damn! but what a rush. school is here and i find myself in my usual ditch i dig too early in the school year. all i do is chill, slowly falling behind in my classes... but, i have decided to change all that this year. i started to pick up the slack lately. even though i've been sick and stuff, i still try, and now since im almost 100% better, im putting more effort in school. good boy now huh? oh well...
during this summer... alot happened:
a) relationship ended
b) met new people and got in touch with old friends
c) started dating =)
d) went out alot
e) got closer w/ some people
f) found out who my true friends are
g) got into shit
h) finished some business
i) lived life how it should be lived, to the max
i chilled alot with "DPRC" and then stuff happened. mostly because of myself. i guess, i like to be the center of attention and stuff like that, but ill talk about that later on. i also chilled with my hommies albert (who i havent seen or talked to since confirmation), armen (hommie i met last summer), and mike (havent spoken to since like what, 8th grade? lol). on top of that, i chilled alot with my bosco friends and met some walnut people. everyone made this a great summer, thanks guys/gals! i played bball alot, hit up random places from LA - hollywood - pasadena - glendale - burbank - wesco - covina - san gab - m park - whittier - downey - pico - rosemead - chino - montclaire - and so on... geez, that was fun! whenever i went out, it was all in good nature and tried to have a good time. thank you guys/gals!
song:: Big Tymers - "this is how we do it"
the dating scene was really wierd, lol. but it was cool, i met alot of people, but sad to say... im a jerk? lol. i guess i went through too many girls too fast. everytime i went out, i practically tried to talk to a new girl and take it from there, but it was fun. hey hey hey, well, i remained friends with all of you and that was cool. having more and more friends is dope. anyway, my current status shall remain unknown for now, hahhaha.... some people know whats up, and if you want to know, feel free to ask ;-)
song:: Jojo - "leave, get out"
thats right! i bump kiis FM, lmao! anyway, i think i have some issues. well, the ones other than the school stuff. im so lazy, i hate school, i like to go out instead! but shizzLe, i havent ditched any classes! at most, i just go late by a little while. i just need to put more and more effort in guys, and i need some encouragement.
song:: Juvenile - "she get it from her mama"
song:: Lil Rob - "neighborhood music"
song:: Nate Dogg - "i got love (remix)"
song:: 213 - "so fly"
but to main point of this post.... i found out, i am SHADY! yeah, and im self concious and im not afraid to admit it... i have been most shady to my hommies, the ones who were there for me, and for what? i ask that question to myself so many times today... you guys have NO IDEA. but thanks for the confrontation. i like being confronted.... helps me express myself and get feedback. i think, maybe i am a dramaking? these are my BROTHERS, for i am not alone... at bosco, i made more than friends, i made brothers. these guys mean a lot to me, there were there for me when i needed them and i dont even know whats up now.

song:: Warren G - "this DJ"
song:: Warren G - "i want it all"
song:: Warren G - "summertime in the LBC"
see, these guys, damn... ive known all of them since freshman yr and stuff... wow, kinda long time ago. now, we're in the 5th yr program together... yet it seems kind of distant, do you guys agree? well, if you dont, i still feel kind of distant for some reason. i dunno why... i know we all went through different things during summer and all that... some good, some bad. but now, nothing is the same. at the beginning of summer i was like, "damn, i cant wait to hit up here and there with the hommies. shit is gone be fun!" and now its like, "hmmm, i wonder whats up with everyone, what is everyone doing?" last year, and at the beginning of summer, i remember us going out and chillin alot. its like we were really close, but now things seem to be different. why? i still dont know! maybe all along it was me and i just didnt notice it? maybe... maybe not. today, it was brought to my attention that i was talking shit. someone out of the group, you should know me pretty well, do i talk shit? NO! you know that. you should know when msgs get relayed, words get twisted. i never talked shit about you, esp. since you had my back and even covered me that one time. man, you know how much that meant to me? i guess not... ask mike, i dont talk shit about you guys. all i said was "X and X dont talk to me anymore. so whatever. i dont feel like trying to go to people if i feel they dont even wanna say wassup and stuff. so fuck IT!" i never said "im tired of this SHIT" or anything like that! first off, what SHIT is there to even be tired of huh? see, exactly man. you say im shady, and maybe i am. maybe i didnt go to you guys and say wassup. or maybe i just passed right by at the library, but you didnt tell me wassup either. it goes both ways hommie. i always said wassup and stuff. we sit next to each other in some classes and stuff, and i always said wassup, now i dont. maybe because im waiting for YOU to tell me wassup? if you dont say wassup either, im not the only shady one, now am i?
song:: Warren G - "regulators"
i dont know, maybe this is just a phase. and all friends have problems, itmakes the friendships stronger and worth it in my opinion... and i dont know who your sourceS are. taking in consideration i only talk to one person... other than that, i just chill by myself or keep things to myself. do you see me at school talking to anyone? usually no... see, i dont really talk to anyone. i wish i could talk to you guys and fill you in w/ my life, but it seems like i cant ever find any of you. so i just stay alone most of the time. but its cool, i guess i get my time to think and all. you know, saying what i had to say to that person was i guess a great idea, i knew it was going to leak. but i dont know how it came to me talking shit.... since i dont! and you know it. but i guess, we need to talk this out or something? hahaha.... anyway, no matter what happens, happened, or is happening... i consider you all my brothers.
song:: TQ - "westside"
lets say we all get something it eat FRIDAY? are you down or out? hit me back some how, ok? if you need a ride tell me and ill see wassup. you'll meet someone and stuff... ok? pat you know what that means.

song:: Houston - "Love you down"
on the other hand... i just wanted to write this to my hommies. and sorry if i am shady or what not, but maybe it goes both ways... and i dont talk shit, i straight up said what i did and i told you today what went down, whatever else you heard, im putting it down... thats BS and you guys should know me, i dont do the shit talking unless its a joke and to someone's face. ON_E

-KAY_j0hN (typical myspace mirror pic, just had to rock that... lol)